Hi My name is Cynthia and I am a first generation daughter of immigrants from Merida, Yucatan, Mexico. I am the first in my family to get their master's degree and the only one of my parents 3 children with children. While I am a middle child, I have the unique experience of being not only invisible but a key piece of this struggle puzzle my family needs me to "peace together" at the drop of my mother's hankerchief or my father's group text. What made understanding My Marianismo trickier is that we again are invisible in modern psychology! There aren't many spaces to talk about the Mariansimo Wound and how it impacts sons and daughters. So I started creating the spaces. 

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I feel My Marianismo creep into every fabric of my day if I am not mindful. The last 5 years I have been on a journey to first research Marianismo and Epigenetics. I went down the rabbit hole of "how Marianismo is in our nervous system and show us as an archaic protector". Once I learned and unlearned so many things about liberating myself from gender roles and colonialism, I starting embodying what it would look like to denounce Marianismo as my default mode. 

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My Marianismo is in my body, in my bones. If I were to write My Marianismo as a recipe it'd read something like:

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Marianismo Ingredients of "Heroes"

- endless pounds of self inflicted guilt

- sprinkles of shame around my gender and body

-notes of rage and disconnection from my higher self

- handfuls of giving and sacrificing for others

- a heap of yawns and stretches to shake off the ache of a restless body

- a dash of imposter syndrome and fear of making my own decisions

- a squeeze of "si se puede" and 2 cups of coffee

- 5 cups of onions and my helpless tears 

- never enough time to go inward with my inner child

- the scarcity of my ancestors and their best desires for me now

-shavings of scarcity because " put that shit on everything"

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This season I am gathering all the pieces, missing parts and encuentros I have been researching and collecting like Ariel enchanted with the relics of our epigenetics and the story our protectors have told. 

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I created a 3hour CEU course for therapists and conferences and for profr they loved it. I have also presented this workshop at conferences and virtual spaces and the only thing I always think is, "we need more time!" We deserve more time to unravel ourselves in soft safe spaces. 

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So I created, curated, crafted, if you will, a portal for us to really slow down and digest the duality of Marianismo and how it impacts all parts of our lives. 

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This is an intimate group centering:

-Maternal Mental Health

-Latina, Indigenous, African & the Diaspora Intergenerational Healing through creativity and indigenous practices.

-Gender Roles in Machismo and Marianismo social norms

-Children of Marianistas

-Self compassion through understanding

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